Love hurts

Like my heading.. LOVE HURTS...
Letting go hurts more....
But i did it...
"Let her go if you really love her "
This phrase came to my mind when i was smoking in my room..
And at the point of time,
the primarative subjuct is in my room..
And i chased her out..
Out of the house,
Out of my life..
A decision which made tears roll down my cheek..
Un-noticed..
Its sad...
I'm feeling very sad..
But yet i'm happy..
With wad i did..
I took her out of my heart..
She's gone.. FOREVER..
that i know..
and yet i'm happy..
Cuz finally words were put into actions..

I love you gal.. But i'm sorry i had to do these..
I had to break us up cuz draggin only hurts more..
A mere 4 mths is still okay to take..
Thoughts of wad i went thru after i broke up in a 2 years r/s came back running towards me..
and i'm scare..
So it had to be done...

Good luck in life and may we not see each other anymore in this life...

Nothing's new with life..

The usual rountine of working..

Pokering...

Soccer Betting has alr became my life..

Single and very available..

But yet i chose not to get into another r/s anytime soon...

Not because i can't let go of the previous one..

But prob jus dun think i suit anyone now..

With the kind of life i am leading now..

I simply have to choice to say no to gf..

Why no to gf? Simply because i'v got almost no time to talk to her at work...

Eyes looking, staring, glaring at me all the time like an eagle awaiting to strike at its un-noticing prey...

Haix.. and working takes up almost all my time when i'm not sleeping...

So i'v got to scarifice my sleep for my beloved poker sessions with buddys....

From 11am-9pm.. sometimes i am late for work.. sometimes i leave early...

Its a bad thing to do.. It really is.. No wonder the HQ ppl hates me so much...

Can't wait to find fault with me at every single little thing...

So normally ard 9pm-10pm i'll leave workplace..

My next destination is either home or josh's place..

Cuz that's where poker normally takes place..

And normally we'll play till next morning..

Thus leaving me with less then 4hrs of slp everyday..

Once i stayed till 9am.. Went sun tanning with nick...

Then went to work straight.. LOL..

bUt poker sessions are fun..

It's like i'm really born to play this game..

My last no winnings were $134 from a $20 buy-in game and $90 from a $70 buy-in game..

It made me the top earner amoung my frens...

I do hope one day i'll be like the big shots playing high stakes poker on national tv.. =D

That's my dream baby...

Anyway... This week, i'v clubbed like 3 times....

1 at Dbl O, twice with poker buddies at Zouk...

And everytime we nvr fail to not get gals..

You see..

They are like regulars there..

So that made me even easier to hook up..

Hahas.. guess no one can stop me from playing now..

I'v got no one to be responsible to anymore..

So .... let's party ppl !!! =D

Alright.. Blog till here..

Heading to sentosa now.. =D

Cheers ppl !!

Its not working out too well now...

I guess abit of space will do us both good...

Considering we only meet up once or twice a week..

It's doing other guys out there a good job...

And the endless quarrels over the phone at night....

It makes me feel so lonely at times...

No one to turn to a all...

All i hope is that you'll be at least a little sensitive to the situation right now...

All i hope is to see the effort you might wanna put into this r/s...

It's breaking up and I'm jus helpless at night...

All i wan is jus a little bit of security from you..

And that to hear or see from your actions that you still care...

Work !!!

Working almost every single day except on sats at Citibella spa and beauty centre at Jurong Point which is at boon lay from 11am-9pm...

Fucking 1 hr journey there and home...

But time pass by damn quickly..

It's a bliss i got this job without pulling much strings...

Earning a rough figure of 1k odd per mth...

Its been a while since money came rolling in'..

Hahass...

Do feel free to drop by and ask me for lunch if i'm free...

I hope i can be free most of the time though...

It'll be quite slack after working for a while i guess...

The ppl there, some frenly, some fucked up...

FUCKING MALAYSIANS...

CCB...

u think u all who..

knn come my country earn money still kpkb....

Not happy fuck off back to m'sia lah...

_l_

I Luv my Nana !!! =D

Alone~

Its been 3 days since baby left sg alr..

Couldn't reach her thru the phone for some reasons..

Maybe didn't activate the auto-roaming services bah..

Miss her loads... And i think Jade miss her as well..

Jade's now residing at my place for the 1 week when baby's in taiwan..

And taking care of him is actually not as hellious and i'v expected..

Had fun with him but he's jus a little too fierce..

Anyway, Sam's back from aus for a 2 week vacation...

Slept over at his place last night..

Had poker and made a personal best record of clearing someone in the first hand of the night...

He had 2 pairs while i had triples... And i went all in, which he called..

And therefore he lost everything.. LOL...

The buy-in was only 20 bucks so.. hahahs..

But as the night continued..

At 1 point i found myself losing everything and i was down to zero dollars..

Sam lend me 8 bucks and in the end i made back but still lost $2.50..

Hahas.. it was alright.. a nice game..

So today went out with sam to slack ard in town..

The leong brothers came and we played 4.5hrs of dota at cyberdome at meridian..

Wasn't reallly fun... Lost every single game..

=(

oKAy jus came home after slacking with Wen hui...

Time to go to bed..

Nights you'all... =D

MISS YOU ALOT BABY !!!!! ="(

Photos :

@ Chalet

New hair colour and style for me and baby =)

That's my gal !!!! =)

Before baby left ~

Tired~

Taken at dear's wrokplace...

.

Jus got back from chalet..

So tired...

Had loads of fun...

Was glad that dear and my cell mates bonded well...

=D

Luvs~

I love you sandnana !!! =D

Why must this happen again... WHY !!??

Told ya there is nth btw me and her le....

Yet you still wanna insist on your views....

I give up...

If you say there's smth on then there is....

NS~

Went back to school today to appeal..

But was told that I won't stand a single chance unless I have a fucking good reason..

Gina and Des went with me...

And they were the first ones to hear the news..

And i think they were shocked at how calm I still could remain..

Although I am dismissed from sch...

They say i can always come back and finish up wad i left behind after NS....

Haix.. Hope they dun tua me on this...

So NS life... Here i come..

A little comforting news is that I would be able to go NS with my frens..

And hopefully we get into the same camp and then I would really have no regrets...

Already spent 2 years alone in poly le...

Dun wan my NS life to sux...

Many of you might be thinking I ki siao or smth..

Go NS still so happy.. But let me tell u guys...

I'm more then prepared to enter NS..

Or should i say can't wait to be enlisted..

But a part of me will be sad cuz i won't be able to see baby as often le...

But on weekends k? =D

Now while waiting for check up and enlistment letter..

I will be working my time away...

Hopefully earn some money and enjoy the remaining time b4 i enter...

Alright back to today...

After school went to city hall with gina and des...

Acc gina to collect her pay...

Then bus-ed to AMK...

Met up with the usual ppl and slacked practically...

Ate dinner with Jon tian and home was the next destination...

Been dota-ing till now and of cuz not to forget..

Talking to baby...

Haven seen her for days le..

Tml will be going down after the job interview to look for her at Roxy...

Miss you loads gurl...

Cya tml yeah?? =D

*Misses and hugs*