Thursday~

Today wasn't like any other sch days.. LOL.. okok.. I pon-ed my last lesson.. Went to meet wei dason shawn and the 2 girls.. Went swimming at yck swimming complex.. From like 4 plus swim till 6pm.. LOL.. smth happened.. a accident.. we were sort of racing to see who could reach the opposite side first and wei jitao chiong straight away.. He didn't realise he actually kicked shawn in the face.. and his nose bled in the waters.. only realised wad happened when we both reach the other end.. LOL.. so shawn was helped onshore and told by the lifeguards to life down to stop the bleeding.. LOL.. anyway.. talked bout naruto in the waters b4 swimming 1 last lap and then showered.. Went to NYP for dinner as usual.. Ate smth diff today.. no more jap.. sick of it.. Had the tom yam ban mian... Was not bad but jus a little spicy.. =S

So after that, accompany wei to his hus to put his stuff cuz his going to des's house for second round of dinner.. LOL.. big eater he is... While i went up to slack abit and get my basketball, the rest waited at the court.. But wd i didn't realise was that wei took my pump needle.. and therefore i can't pump my ball.. so went down and we all slacked at the court.. couldn't play anyway.. some idoits playing soccer on the court.. plus we didn't have the ball until wawa's fren came down with 1.. Slacked till bout 9pm.. they decided since the ball and fren is here.. might as well play for abit.. so all of us walked across the street to the teck gee cc.. It was empty there.. So we played 4v4 again.. me, des, wawa and des's youngest bro.. it was unbalance obviously.. the other team had wei, wawa's pro fren( my standard =P), gm and das... They owned us.. Anyway, after that game me and wawa's fren jio-ed ppl for 2v2.. 11 balls and we won.. =D
Zai point guard, that's me.. hahahas.. but in reture, i got like a billion blisters waiting to tear on both my feet.. Ouch.. super pain.. walk also need to limp.. Haix.. got most of them in the first game with wei.. so imagine i had to play in that type of pain during the 2v2.. my logic very simple.. Everything dun wan is can live on de.. face, pride, and of cuz the person whom i love very much now is the most impt thing.. =D

Hmmm... i wonder how's she now... I know i'v said alot of nonsence that made ur mind run non-stop.. trying to figure out wad's with me.. Frankly, i dunno also.. i dunno why i'm acting like that.. Its like very moodless for me now... During dota with des they all... u suddenly called... its like i nvr thot u ever would again.. but nt to be happy bout anyw, its bout dota.. so how glad sld i be??
Plus i think.. i think only.. hmmm.. nvm.... Sonner or ltr sure will know de.. dun need to think so much... =/

K lah.. stop here.. today's connection is like shit.. keep dc-ing.. dulan... =C tmr sch's at 9am.. going to bed after a smoke.. Cya peeps.. i love you all faithful readers !!! Though i know there's only 1.. =X


Is your love a lie?
oR is this jus a test?
I dun see how we dun fit into each other's world...
Lookin back at the first week..
Tears would roll down all of the sudden..
Am i thinking too much now??
Is there still hope for the near future??
Expect nth and you'll be less hurt..
That's wad they all say...

Wed~

Today was jus like any other sch days.. Attend lessons, lunched out with mum at tp, then headed back... On the way back, my director called, said he had to speak to me... And once again i was right, it's regarding my studies... All of my lecturers are pushing for me to get debarred cuz of my poor attendance.. But he is kind enough to defend for me.. I really appreciate it alot.. Jus that i know he's nvr gonna see this.. =S

Anyway.. after sch, went home... Common test is coming !!! First paper starts on the 5th Dec.. OMG !!!! So little time yet so much to study !!! Siao liao !!! Cannot play so much le.. Must prove critics wrong... I'm born to do that i suppose... =S

Erm, reached home.. Arranged with wei and company to play basketball.. Mel and Gina came along.. hahas.. recently gina like keep slacking with us.. Welcome gal !!! =D

k LAh.. nth much happened.. Went off 438 after like 9pm lidat... went to my hus court there play.. finally got lines le.. Easier to play... Hahahas.. played 4v4... Nb.. really fun... I'm glad i got ppl like u guys in my life.. Although at times i know my temper abit fked up.. so sorry man... =X
Will change that.. Now i know who are the real frens and fakes... Its too easy to tell... Anyw,
Dota time.. Revenge match... Dun believe we will lose to u cbss de ppl... GG !!!!! Muahahahhahahahas !!!!



If you'r meant to be, you will be...
If not no matter how hard u force it,
Nth will happen.. =D

Now its time to look away from the closed door,
but not look at those opened..
Instead, I will actually have to focus all my attention,
On my studies !!!! =D

Cheers,
Ry@n~

Instincts~

I guess i was right...

You didn't have any trouble pulling out of this mess...

You dun lack anyone to be there..

I'm jus glad for ya...

God, dunno when this ordeal will come to an end...

Exams coming soon...

Dun even know wad's going on for the new module i'm taking this sem...

Jus that little tiny matter has taken too much concentration away from me....

A fatal distraction it has been...

A fool I have been to walk right into the middle of it....

Jus hope things settle down soon enough...

But i guess the problem will drag on to the next year...

And this christmas, instead of wad i thot it would be like....

Will be like shit...

Wad can i say? Wad can i do? Well... the very least a THANK YOU !!

Thank you for all these, Well done...




i Know more or less you got affected by wad i said...
It proved smth.. something i needed to know badly...
And u have no idea how glad i was...
REally...
but wad difference does it make?
Nth can change ur mind...
Well.. i hope that every decision u make is a right one...
Cuz u got no room for regrets in this case...
But i still do hope.. And am carrying them high up...



Three simple words jus for you..
* *** *** !!!

I REALLY HATE YOU ALOT...

That's final.. No one has done shits like this b4...
Wad??? Am i a joke??
Do i look like i'm from the circles???

Helly shit... Today wasted my whole entire day willingly.. up to a point of time it everything was still far from okay... But as evening proceeded, It became hopeless..

Met up wawa ard 6plus and we cycled ard amk looking for pump for my basketball.. We were gonna play at my hus court there.. But to no avail could we find one.. Instead we went to look for ah leong and ken and his stead.. They were fishing at bp with jus strings no rods or nets... LMAO... then ltr wei wei came over.. Damn funny.. you called me jus to tell me to go to the patrol station to borrow the pump there... Hello???!!! Basketball pump needs to have the needle.. the pump there is freaking for tyres.... You think i haven thought of that?? Anyw, then we rushed back to 330 there the bicycle shop... But it's closed.. KnnCcb... Oh yeah.. injured my leg on both area behind the shin.. Cuts from the bicycle tyre... Was practically playing in pain with the borrowed ball.. Oh yeah.. kept having gastric pain thru out the night as i hadn't eaten anything at all for the entire day.. Somemore played bball.. Arg !! Okay bah.. think i stop here..

cya ppl...


Now you have got someone else to see u home,
you got someone else to dine with,
you got someone else to do heart to heart talks..
It seems that i'm totally redundant in ur life anymore...
Wad i had today was far the worst kind of experience i'v even had..
Its like worst then dropping into a pile of shit-sea..

Anyway.. I'v moved on.. Goodbye..

When you'r gone~

Supp...

Back to blogging despite saying i wannna close down this blog again.. I dunno why.. blogging seems like the only way i could stress out everything on...

Nth eventful happened over the past few days... been jus trying to digest everything that has happened.. Seems like its' not wanting to get digested.. =/

Anyw, played street soccer and volleyball with diff groups of ex-piercians.. Was quite good, got alittle tan and stuff... Hmmm.. wad else?? Oh.. broke up again.. =,=

Life won't be the same again.. But !!! Life still has to go on... =S

Haix... dunno wad to say ler.... I guess its best if i dun say anymore... Dun wan history to repeat... =C

So i'll stop here then... =D
goodbye~

love is?

What i can give is wad u want...
Yet u chose not to take it...
It burns in my heart knowing that i'v done everything possible alr...
And there's nothing left to be done other then wait...

Its all my fault falling for ue..
Its all my fault making u feel so troubled and miserable..
Its all my fault...


Wanting to let go but i can't bear to..
Wanting to seek the happiness that's right in front of me is a imposibble thing to do..


So tell me, wad sld i do?
Walk away in pain?
oR
Stay wif you in pain?


I love you..
and i loved u..
I'v done enough..

When i sent you to ur floor, the way u walked away.. the look on ur face.. it tells me 1 thing... Its all over for real.. Its all over...
I wanted to chase after u.. but i held myself and backed into the lift..
The moment the lift door closed.. The passage way btw us closed down.. I can feel it..
You'r no longer the you i once knew...

Moodless~

"You said nth can tear us apart !!
Happiness awaits for us... "

Look wad you'v done... Jus take a look...

Its tearing inside..
Its bleeding profusely..
Its rotting to death..

If there's ever something i could do to make it all right..
I'll do it..
I'll make it right...

E-learning~

Today is EE's e-learning day, so their won't be a need to go to sch for all EE students.. Woke up by my mum today.. At 1pm.. first thing she came into the room was off the air-con and slap me till i woke up.. then questioned me why i pon class again.. Though i forgot to tell her bout the e-learning shit.. She ain't got any rights to slap me up right??? Can't be polite abit mehh?? Ccb !!! Made me fking dulan.. So woke up.. Realised she din't give me allowance today.. So decided to skip lunch.. Save money.. =D

Dota-ed for like a couple of hours.. Then went to meet wei , dason, gm and des at nyp for dinner.. Been there like twice in a roll.. Both times dinner.. Actually supposed to be at a cell outing tonight.. But since i'm left with not much cash on hand.. Decided wad's best and stayed in AMK area to slack for the rest of the night.. Then, as usual, went home for dotA... been dota-ing like almost everyday since i know these ppl.. Its like everynight lah.. Hahas.. becoming a habit le..

Hmmmm.. dear's coming back tmr.. I'm missing her so much now.. sorry for the late reply dear !! Was in a game.. didn't realise the msg.. =S Anyway... yess... i can finally see u le !!! Hope u didn't become more tan ah... Hahahas... OR an alcoholic.. I know wad its like down there from the first day u described things as... Hmmm... Hopefully tmr can see u like jus for a couple of seconds ye hao.. =D

Luv you loads bAobeii !!! =D

Street soccer tmr early in the morning.. guess i shall head to bed ler... Cya soon again ppls !!! =)

2 Days w/o u~

Bao beii has gone for 2 days alr.. And seriously i'm missing her presence alot !!!! =(

Today was jus like any other ordinary day for me.. Went to school, attended all my lectures and tutorials, felt really satisfied.. Hahas.. =D

During lunch break, fren drove us out to bukit timah area for lunch.. Think i sld really attend more schools.. Meeting new frens is not that bad after all.. Wad i'v gone thru today shows me wad i have been missing out during times when i pon classes in the past.. Glad that i'm back !! =D

Dear sent me a msg today.. told me not to worry bout her and everything's fine.. but nan mian dou hui dan xin de mah.. If not hai shuan shi ta de nan peng you meh?? =P oh yeah, dear is down with a flu, get well soon okay ??!!! i wan ya to enjoy as much as u can since u'r alr there.. Dun wan u to be only able to rest in the apartment and miss out all the fun.. Missing you alot bao beii !!! =D

Oh yeah... during dota-ing, bump into a fren i knew from MapleSea.. lols.. i added her like 2yrs back and now see her in dota.. LOL.. she's not bad... quite zai.. Dear.. u got competitor le.. hahas...

Hmmm.. k lah.. abit tired now.. been walking alot in the rain today.. Hopefully won't fall ill tmr... And another piece of good news... NO SKOL ON FRIDAY !!!! WHHEEEEEEEEE~~~

E-learning day for EE mah.. hahas.. so song !!! Can stay home and rest and slack and dota and many more other things !!! =))

Time to head to bed !! Cya peeps soon !!!

Back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heyy peeps !!!!
Got mIss me mahhs !!??? Hahahs... Its been a while since i last blogged..
Finally found back the mood for blogging.. =D

nOw let's do abit of updating.........


Hmmmm ever since my last post which was like about a month ago.. i stopped thinking bout my ex totally... It was pretty awesome and amazing as i thot it would be hard after wad we had been thru.. but with to God's grace and mercy, the impossible happened.. Yupp.. And my life rocks now !!!


I can still vaguely rmb wad happened 1 month ago.. The day i closed down my blog, wei wei and wawa jio-ed me to a chalet outing with them.... There i met many ppl from chong boon sec.. i mean its their class chalet so of cuz all of them are from CB except the few of us.. Met ppl whom i regularly meet out with now, Des, dason, gm, dog, jh and last but not least, my bao beii darling Cheryl !!! =D Got together with her on the 2th of Nov !!!



That night when there purely jus to have fun. Also trying to forget the past.. So its a opportunity why not go for it.. So after dota-ed back home, we met up ard 9pm and cabbed down to east coast for the chalet.. Was abit pai seh at first cuz dunno anyone mah.. Plus at the time didn;t really know wei wei that well.. but still decided to be frenly and make frens.. I dun get it why they all say i look fierce when that's how i look all the time... O.o??? hahas.. maybe born with that expression bah.. bo bian.. sry ppl if i had scared u off from breaking the ice with me.. =X

Okay... now let me continue this post starting from today !!



Tuesday..


Dear left for Malaysia at first light.. Planned to phone with her for abit b4 she leaves SG but sorry !!! Being a pig de wo.. Couldn't wake up after 6 miss calls and i think darl gave up trying to wake me up.. Sorry !!! =S



Anyway.. when you'r in M'sia, dun have me to peii u.. hope my phone can keep the sian-ness away.. =D Though now cannot listen to music or call my frens and chat, regardless all the bu fang bian-ness.. I'm still willing to lend it to u.. Jus wan u to be happy always !!! =D



Hmmmm.. wad else... oh yeah... went skol.. and attended all my lessons for the first time since dunno how long.. LOLS.. okay i know it sounds bad.. But i'm changing for the better alr !! Okay...... at least trying... =P


Life w/o dear was quite not wad i expected to be.. Cuz i nvr had this kind of thing b4.. its like i'm always the one travelling ard the world leaving ppl behind... But now finally got a taste of it.. And it SUXS !!!!!!!!!!!!!


4 more days before she returns from her beautiful holiday.. Jus received a msg from her not long ago.. She's all fine and enjoying her mug or glass of blue bombay.. I'm not really a fan of vodlka or beer but do drink occasionally jus for entertainment sake...

"Darl ah !! Dun drink till drunk hor.. i know ur limit and i hope u know urs okay !!??" =)


Hmmmm... so today after skol was supposed to go swimming but in the end, becuz i have to meet my mum for lunch, missed the swimming session.. =( Damn !!! Wanted to swim really badly lah !!! Hmmm.. i guess maybe tmr go down alone bahhs.... So went to meet wei des dason dog and another guy... went to hub's pepper lunch for dinner.. tHey all ordered except me cuz i had a really heavy late lunch.. Shi ke yi chi de xia, but decided that i'm on a money saving plan so... =D and also can jian feii !!! If not ltr dear keep calling me pigg or fat wadever de.. =X

Then after that gm came to meet us.. Was supposed to go meet ah hua.. Wei had smth to pass it to her.. But her mum won't let her out.. So postponed to tmr... Hope things will go well for wei wei... seeing him moodless at times really made me feel helpless all the time...


BAO BEI :

I miss ue loads gurl !!! =D Got a surprise waiting for ya when u return from ur trip !!! =D
Be safe and look after urself !!! Dun lose my phone hor !!! =D
MUACKS !!!


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