Piorities...

You would rather trust someone u jus got close with then someone u have been close to..
MY heart is urging me to let you go like you'v always wanted...
yet my mind is stopping me so...
I really dunno wad to do...
Die trying to get you back...
Or should i go?
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Things didn't change for the better...
My hatred for that someone is to a extend where it cus my blood to boil..
To brothers you do such a thing...
To me, you killed off any hope...
Forget it...
forget it..
fOrget it.
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WHERE DID THE YOU I KNEW GO????????????

Fren turn foe...

I didn't even touch you..

Didn't even step on your tail...

Yet u stepped over mine...

Not only once..

But over and over again..

I knew you for how long??

A few months alr..

Felt that you are a worthy fren...

Today u proved me wrong..

Feeling guilty after reading this post of mine??

You sld know who you are...

The things u are doing...

Think i dunno???

You'r very lucky..

I'm really actually trying to control my emotion

while typing this post...

Its okay...

Now that i know wad kind of person you are...

You no longer have a place in my world...

We won't be laughing and joking like that past anymore...

And up to this point...

I'm close to giving up on my dream...

Because its so pointless losing sleep over wad YOU did....

you can do wad you wan but in my heart i'v alr fuck-cared you...

YOU are my fren turned foe....

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HoYun, gwen, jon, thnx for comforting me today...

It was really apprecaited...

If not for u guys...

My day won't be made...

Warrens bowling team forever...

Miss the old days when aaron, pat, dan, joel, javier are ard...

Bowling used to be so much fun until.......

This year's inter club league...

Go for 1st guys..

U guys did great by clinging the 4th position..

Hope i can play a greater role this year....

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-SHOULD I STAY-

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Had a drive

Driven by your love

But when you messed around

I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed

Needed someone true

But you changed your mind

Or had I failed you?

Wish you’d been Careful with my heart

But you tore it apart

And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true

Has to end somehow

But I am livin’ proof of what love is about

It’s hard holding you

Loving you, losing you

It’s sad to be true

And be fooled by you

I don’t know (I don’t know)

I gotta know

Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on

Played me like a clown

But I feel for you

Eventhough I’m down

My heart is heavy

Heavy like a rock

But I am so amused

You’re still in my thoughts

It’s hard holding you

Loving you, losing you

It’s sad to be true

And be fooled by you

I don’t know (I don’t know)

I gotta know

Should I stay or should I go?

Oooohh…should I stay?

Should I go?

It’s hard holding you

Loving you, losing you

It’s sad to be true

And be fooled by you

I don’t know (I don’t know)

I wanna know

Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done

It’ll never feel the same

But we had some good times

Guess it’s sad just the same

I guess the truth

Doesn’t matter somehow

But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…

FRIDAY NOT THE 13TH YET...

BBQ was great today..
The team bonded well and its really good to get everyone together..
Hoyun.. Australia yeah !! =D

Unreasonable

It was jus a small matter and u made it a big deal...
Was it u jus trying to find fault at every single possible chance with me?
Or was it really my fault??

Like i said.. It was nvr my intention to shout at you over the phone..
You wanna be childish about it then there's really nth i can do...
This jus shows how much u love me..
Last night at your house...
You took me on a advanture ride...
It was great and things looked good..
But now... Great...
Sandrina.. The effort last night was the sincerity i tried to show...
You on the other hand..
Took me on a rollar coaster ride...
You wanna know wad sean tze and i talked about that time when i went over to his place??
It was about u then melody..
And he alr told me that you'r not the one..
Since u like to turn to yur fren's advise so much,
Then i shall follow suit..
There's no turning back after this one...
Shows how naive you are at handling this r/s...

Last night you also showed me something else...
You are getting used to life alr...
It seems that i'm the extra burden now...
Time for you to go back to the past b4 u know me...
Think u'll be happier this way..
This is where we part forever..
You said u dun think there'll be a next time talkin to me...
I respect that decision..
Take care..


Holidays are here...
Too bad have to enjoy alone...
Its okay.. at least now that she made it clear to me..
Being with me only make her frens distant her..
So w/o me.. i hope she'll be much happier..
Love someone.. got to let her go.. Very true.. =D
Alr, will be heading out for bbq at timah...
Was slacking with des, wei wei and delia..
Still at the end...
Its frens who are still ard..

The feeling worsen. ..
I should have seen it coming...
Gary's hutch was right...
So i guess it's time....

=D

Hey 123.. get a life instead of being anomynous...

You better not be one of my frens...

Be my fren still put your name as 123...

Throw face lah...

Hmmm...

End of papers...

Holiday here but like abit moodless leh...

Feel like eating meat..

lol...

Very random but like super hot up today..

Anyway...

Went eating with brothers at jalan besar..

Drank quite abit..

Then cabbed to find sandrina...

Talked things out but oh well..

We'll see...

Then went back to Geylang look for Gary and sebas...

Chit chat talk cock till like 4am..

Nb... Alot of secondary school days nonsense...

Hahahahass...

Jus got home...

Garena like cannot load leh...

Sianx.....

HEY 123, COME FIND ME LEH.. I VERY SIANX LEHH...

Very long nvr treat ppl eat fist liao leh...

COme find me lehh..

But i know u won't come de lah..

Write for song only..

Keyboard warriors..

Hahahahahas...

Very good.. fk off.. goodbye..

The night u told me u heard things outside about me like another gal...
The moment u choose to believe wad u heard...
It's over...

I'll give you a explaination here..
Yes... there is a gal outside whom i like..
And i think u sld know who she is..
Non other then delia...
My eyes were set upon her the first time i met her...
and interest grew....
And i did wanna jio her...
But look, i told myself...
And a few others...
That i have sandrina...

And i love her alot...

I'm really happy being wif her with no regrets..
I won't do a foul play like that...
I'm not a bastard who plays or cheats on my own very girlfren...
I call her names like darling, bao beii..
But which gal outside whom i know of didn't get the same treatment from me...
Ask si xiu, ask yiying, ask gina, ask hui yu, ask abby...
And alot more...
Its obvious its a habit of calling gals i'm close with...
But we all knew i am jus playing ard..
Its nth close to serious..
Nth close to how serious i am with u, sandrina...
But u chose to believe those words from Dunno who and u think i'm a player now...
Come on lah.. ppl who knows me long enough know wad kind of person i am..
I maybe claiming i wan this gal i wan that gal all the time..
But since when did anyone in this whole fking world witness me cheat on my gf b4??
If there's any i will deifinitely allow u to do wadever u wan me to do..
Be ur slave or dog or wadever... I'll do it...
BUT IS THERE ANYONE !!??
I can tell u no...
Alright.. Since u dun trust me no longer..
There's no need for me to ask u to stay...
Wei wei... i'm sorry but i know u meant me well that's why u keep talking me out of it...

Asking me to not regret bout my decision..

I did thot bout it and i really wan her back...

But its too late now...
Cuz there are jus certain ppl who are KNNCCB father die mother die wanna interfere with my r/s...
You all know who u are lah hor...
Buay song lai lah... BLK 352 lim bei wait here for u..

Ccb...

U come dun kill me u better run as ar as u can... Pu bor...

And regarding delia.. I wanna make it clear to every single one..
She's my gan mei and that's final...

Me and her are jus frens...

Nth more will come out between us...
aNYone buay song can come find me lah...
i WAit for u... Lai !!!
Ccb. _l_

Alright.. i'll end this post with...
Time to be single and free.. It's time to play...
Tml's my last paper and i got no fking mood to fking study for it.. so i'll jus leave it to fate...
If i fail, i'm out of school and into NS i will....
If i pass good.. i finish and grad with a diploma...

Ciao and..

Sandrina, i still love you alot..
But now i dunno how things will end up...

Be it tgt or not...

I jus wan you to know...

It's really a diff experience wif u compared to anyone else in this world...

you'r really special to me...

Sigh~

Where are you??

I realised after norine..
Nth last..
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Exams

Stress !!!

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Sorry baby..

Sorry for acting very weird and strange over the past few days..

Haven been studying for my papers and

therefore keep venting my stress and anger on you..

Sorryyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exam paper 1 tml.... =(

Haven really studied... omg.. less then 12 hours b4 paper starts..

STRESS !!!

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STRESS !!!

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STRESS !!!

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STRESS !!!

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You are my one and only ~

Happy Valentine !!!!

It's been a while since i spent valentines day with someone.. And all i wanna say is I enjoyed alot !!! Thanks baby for making everything go so smoothly.. The act at the station when u alr saw me, Dinner, and everything at pasir ris park. =D Love them all !!!!

Woke up quite late in the morning due to previous night's tonning at cb Mac's with the boys and yi ying. Gary, raymond and Kai quan came to look for us... Its a surprise that we hang out almost every now and then cuz we dun use to talk alot... But anyway back to valentine's day.. Arranged to meet darling at 5.30pm, slacked at hub with li ping, then trained down to PS to meet sandrina. Sorry was half an hour late.. Sorry !! :'( Walked to Grand Cathey, wanted to watch a movie but couldn't find a suitable timing.. So decided to grab some food first since we'r both hungry.. Went up to 4th floor Aston's but the queue is ridicularously long.. So cabbed down to cine for pasta mania cuz darling had a crave out of a sudden.. Wasn't an issue cuz i love pasta mania, i swear i really love them alot.. And they decided to gift me.. Guess wad i got from them?? Cannot guess right ah?? K lah.. i'll say.. a strand of hair in my pasta.. =PP Well, before i said anything dear got the waitress to change a plate for me le.. LOL... that was fast.. initially wanted to feast till like left half a plate then complain Cuz i was DAMN hungry.. But oh well... So after eating went window shopping at taka and wisma..

Dear ah !! Control !!! Dun see liao jiu yao mai.. Have a thot for ur bank lah.. i know u are rich now.. but also not like that spend one mah.. Plus ur closet and shoe racks are alr full to the brim.. I'm gonna teach you how to spend ur money wisely, so listen up.. =D

First, go to the atm and press the bank transfer selection.. Then transfer all ur money to my acc... =D Ta daa ~~ Jus kidding.. =,="

Kay, so before we left town to find wei wei des they all in bishan, had a smoke outside wisma and got a valentine's day balloon for dear.. I didn't know how badly she wants a balloon but i thot it was cute and sweet so decided to get her one.. Glad u love it and the flowers but too bad they'r both ken's stead now.. LOL... Cuz after we met them bus-ed down to pasir ris park.. Ken is hogging to the flower and balloon.. think he alr turn crazy for gals le.. The whole clique slacked at the rocks near pit 1.. Sang songs, took photos, look at the scenery, its quite romantic to actually jus sit there with dear and them and jus look out at the sea.. It fills the heart with a type of warmness and peace the mind from any troubles..

At ard 12am, we left pasir in 3 cabs due to some reason which is better off if i dun mention.. Everyone's mood changed and it wasn't exactly how i wanted my valentine's day to end but oh well.. I cabbed with dear, gina and hui yu while the rest splited up in other cabs.. Sent dear home then went to downtime to look for the rest.. Nth much happened there, played left 4 dead after late supper with gary, yi ying and shawn.. Hui yu had no money to cab home and we all didn't have much on us.. So eventually she decided to bus home.. Slacked till 6am and i really buay dong liao.. so left with shawn, kap cab home.. It was then i realised i left my hus key with dear.. So forgetful sia.. But still someone opened the door for me.. Thanks to that someone cuz i really am too tired to even bother see who it is.. LOL.

Alright.. i'll end my post with thanks darling for getting me another bottle of perfume.. Soon i'll be able to have a garauge sales and acution my perfumes.. =P HAHAS... jkjk... Alright, going to look for dear at her workplace soon.. love you baby !!!

Muackx !!!

Photos :

Pls refer to sandrina's blog for photos.. Too lazy to post.. LOLS.. =P

07/02/02

It's gonna be one of the best birthday party i ever had... it was totally awesome.. I wanna thnx all those who came.. U guys made my day man.. All the fun we had last night.. its really incredible.. Luv you all and special credits to my gf for planning and helping out ... love you lots gal !! And to all my brothers who came down.. You guys rock !!!

Extracted from sandrina's blog :

Yesterday, after sending Jade to Royston's place from "baby-sit" I rush back to pack up, and rush off to uncle's place. From uncle's place, rush down to Ryan's party. From Ryan's party, rush down to Century Square's Jack's Place with Wen Hui. From there, we rush back to the party. Then, then cake cutting starts at about 9+pm (20/02) as Ryan dont wan the cake to turn soft. After then, Ryan got drunk and *poof* Off he goes, NAP TIME!till 1+am, he woke up and he's alright already. But then, Ken and one of Ryan's female friend got drunk. Of course, all of us enjoyd last night's fun. Yes, im like a mad woman. rushing here and there. Busy taking care of the guest and those drunk ones. *phew* A sweetest nightmare afterall. (L)Pictures:
ugly -.- Fine, i forced him to smile His Cake
The group
Brothers of his
Alright, they're lame like.... donkey


Couple , couple

Such a nice request from nana*


Cake sliced by Sean
With strawberry in his mouth. And ppl shout, " EH, THE STRAWBERRY DE LEAVE CANNOT EAT ONE!" Drunk



HELLO, THANKS FOR COMING TO MY RESCUE THAT DAY!When he's awake after 12am. Which is like two hours after his nap from those liquor?The Nerd and blind
The bash (; Girl: i dont wanna drink...
Guy: C'mon, just drink. Girl: Please... i dont wan the drink
Guy: I TELL YOU TO DRINK LAAA...
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Laugh, im just kidding. The girl was drunk and the guy is asking her to drink the cup of warm water. Lol.

Sandnana's my life ~

It's been a while~~~ Hahas.. my msg tone..
Haven blogged for a long time i realised..
Been rather busy trying to force myself to wake up in time for sch,
busy with CNY and also my bbq planning.. Lots of things to do and yet so little time..

Everything in life is great and awesome currently.. Having fallen back into the city of love.. Hahas..
Jus hope this one can weather the storms which the others didn't managed to.. Oh yeah.. once again its my bday bbq party at pasir ris park 1 pit 13.. If ya free do come down and have some fun.. food and drinks will be provided of cuz.. And paying for all these burnt off like nearly half my ang bao money.. =/ But its okay lah.. After all i'm 19 going 20.. Into the next phase of life..

Looking back at wadever that has happened for the past 6 mths.. I'm surprised at how easily things come and go and believe me there ain't any regrets at all.. Not meant to be then so be it.. No point keep thinking bout the past unless u'r really a retard.. ( But gal.. this doesn't apply to ur case.. I definitely will find him and when that day comes.. It'll be one hell of a day for him... )
Am jus really glad that all those decisions and choices were made.. If not i won't have met the ppl ard me now...

I love my life,
I love my gal,
I love my bros,
And last but not least, my family.. =D

Really afraid of the day when my 2 closest kin leaves me... ='(

Photos :

@ nana's relative place bai nian

@ City alive with joab and company