Love hurts

Like my heading.. LOVE HURTS...
Letting go hurts more....
But i did it...
"Let her go if you really love her "
This phrase came to my mind when i was smoking in my room..
And at the point of time,
the primarative subjuct is in my room..
And i chased her out..
Out of the house,
Out of my life..
A decision which made tears roll down my cheek..
Un-noticed..
Its sad...
I'm feeling very sad..
But yet i'm happy..
With wad i did..
I took her out of my heart..
She's gone.. FOREVER..
that i know..
and yet i'm happy..
Cuz finally words were put into actions..

I love you gal.. But i'm sorry i had to do these..
I had to break us up cuz draggin only hurts more..
A mere 4 mths is still okay to take..
Thoughts of wad i went thru after i broke up in a 2 years r/s came back running towards me..
and i'm scare..
So it had to be done...

Good luck in life and may we not see each other anymore in this life...

Nothing's new with life..

The usual rountine of working..

Pokering...

Soccer Betting has alr became my life..

Single and very available..

But yet i chose not to get into another r/s anytime soon...

Not because i can't let go of the previous one..

But prob jus dun think i suit anyone now..

With the kind of life i am leading now..

I simply have to choice to say no to gf..

Why no to gf? Simply because i'v got almost no time to talk to her at work...

Eyes looking, staring, glaring at me all the time like an eagle awaiting to strike at its un-noticing prey...

Haix.. and working takes up almost all my time when i'm not sleeping...

So i'v got to scarifice my sleep for my beloved poker sessions with buddys....

From 11am-9pm.. sometimes i am late for work.. sometimes i leave early...

Its a bad thing to do.. It really is.. No wonder the HQ ppl hates me so much...

Can't wait to find fault with me at every single little thing...

So normally ard 9pm-10pm i'll leave workplace..

My next destination is either home or josh's place..

Cuz that's where poker normally takes place..

And normally we'll play till next morning..

Thus leaving me with less then 4hrs of slp everyday..

Once i stayed till 9am.. Went sun tanning with nick...

Then went to work straight.. LOL..

bUt poker sessions are fun..

It's like i'm really born to play this game..

My last no winnings were $134 from a $20 buy-in game and $90 from a $70 buy-in game..

It made me the top earner amoung my frens...

I do hope one day i'll be like the big shots playing high stakes poker on national tv.. =D

That's my dream baby...

Anyway... This week, i'v clubbed like 3 times....

1 at Dbl O, twice with poker buddies at Zouk...

And everytime we nvr fail to not get gals..

You see..

They are like regulars there..

So that made me even easier to hook up..

Hahas.. guess no one can stop me from playing now..

I'v got no one to be responsible to anymore..

So .... let's party ppl !!! =D

Alright.. Blog till here..

Heading to sentosa now.. =D

Cheers ppl !!