Keeping away

Hey ppl.. Fk.. its so weird blogging again man.. Haven touch this stuff since lyk yrs ago.. Hmmmm... Well, now that i have the time, i'll prob jus do blogging as part of my daily routine. =)
Life's pretty much sucky.. Erm, Wads else.. It's gonna be a lonely Christmas this year. hahas. Not to forget that i still have frens, its not so bad afterall... Well, Alot of things happened during the past 2 months. Alot of things and words that are unnecessary are done and said, and in the process ppl got hurt... Yup, that's pretty much for my last 2 months living as a human on earth. Been really torturing, anyway, Looking ahead, the path's still mizty and there's alot of things to be accomplished. Why waste time over such un-impt stuff rite? =) Well, the btm line is that wadever feeling in my heart still stands, its smth that cannot be changed. Alright, now, wad sld i talk about leh... Today jus started, ytd wasn't really nice for me to talk about anything... Aiya.. okay.. i'll jus back track abit on life, for the benefit of those who donno me well, I'm a poly yr 2 student studying in NP. engineering course, Erm, i had a gf, had a pretty life, but my world was crushed to pieces 2mths ago.. Well, i couldn't say its not my fault, and i couldn't say its totally my fault, hmmm... Jus that when 2 ppl who have lived tgt for so long, things may start to change, and when they cannot adapt to the changes of their partners, arguments, quarrels, fighting arose.. And when these problems are not solved fast, or with a permanent solution, it will be almost hard to continue living tgt.. Unless the love is so strong that they are willing to overcome any obstacles. Yup, but anyway, its all the past, and wad i'm looking ahead to is a new life, but i hope that i can still be tgt with her even if i'm a totally different person. Alright, not to side-track so much, ytd was pretty much torturing and enjoying. Well, was supposed to play tennis at nyjc with XZ, des, ger, Lj and YD... And we'r supposed to meet at 9.30 am at amk hub.. but the moment i reach hub, it started to rain cats and dogs, and i'm lyk wtf... Siao liao... So 1 by 1, i told them its cancelled since the rain was so heavy. And ard 11 plus, when i reached home, it stopped raining.. so i decided to call them up and arrange to go play at a later timing, but well, they got other plans alr so i'll jus stick along to their plans.. And during these time till we meet up at 4.30 at hub, something happened that totally pissed me off.. Well, i am at fault totally.. Called her numerous time and when she fianally picked up, we talked and was obvious she didn't want to talk for long cuz she's dun wad lah trying clothes or smth.. erm.. but i insisted, then he took over the phone and warn me to stay away, so i asked him out and talk face to face, he chicken out.. lyk a pussy.... It jus screwed up my whole day.. Wasn't in any mood to do anything, Dota-ed for a game, went to watch Warlords with the gang, YD came for the first time since so long cuz he was busy with his A's.. We bought a 7pm movie, in the mean time had 2hrs to burn so we went to the NEBO cafe, played Balderdash, a bullshitting game, u got to be damn good at ur craps in order to own.. hahas.. was fun.. time really flew and next thing i knew was we were watching the show alr... It was quite a long show, erm.. during the whole time had her on my mind, wondering wad she's doing and stuff, wanted to meet up, but prob she's jus too busy for me anymore.. So after the movie went to botak jones, the AMK outlet.. Went there ard 9... Order the food, and when the food came, there were no fries, instead they replaced it with the vege.. so it was half a plate of vege and petti on the other half, fk lah.. to think they had lunch and dinner tgt alr pissed me off bad enough.. fk it.. forget it.. erm... walked to the 74 bus stop from the hawker, talked to YD and he gave me some advises... Walked home after that, talked to many ppl on the way home but really jus couldn't calm my heart down at all.. Went home, tot bout it and i really wan to see her and talk things out.. Saw her downstairs, tried to talk but it wasn't of any use.. I'm alr no longer in her heart.. So.. was really shity.. went home and dota-ed more.. till ard 5 plus. i decided since i wasn't slpy, i'll jus re-make my blog and starting posting.. Erm.. fell alsp halfway and found my laptop on the floor this morning.. must have dropped it or smth.. Thnx god the screen didn't crack or wad.. Hmmm... starting of a new day.. or sld i say a boring day? nah.. new day sounds fine.. i'm gonna try move on but my heart will always stay faithful to her no matter wad... I hope she knows it... Haix... k lah.. write till here.. Cya...