Weekends

Hey.. Sorry for not updating.. Have been very busy during my weekends.. Well.. let's start with friday.. Skol ended an hour early cuz the air-con in the LT was spoilt.. So lecturer dismissed us early.. Everyone were sweating like mad.. It was like SAUNA man... after that went to the lib.. watched the bubble boy.. Movie about this kid who has no immune system.. A single germ could kill him anytime.. So he had to live in this huge bubble tube made by his parents.. Funny show though.. After that went to centre point for work with jon.. Originally was from 9pm-3am.. But work ended like at 12am.. Zzz.. had a quick bite at Mac's ... Then took a cab home.. Cuz company policy allows us to claim.. Hahas.. well.. the dumb thing was i forgot to get a receipt from the taxi driver.. But my sales rep got it covered for me.. Hope can claim tio.. =X


Sat.. worked full shift from 10am to 10pm at taka men's depertment.. Selling shirts from this Brand call Arnold Palmer.. No business one.. Fkin slack.. Walked ard.. talk to ppl.. Met gals.. LOL... Took smoking breaks on and off.. The promoters there were damn frenly lah.. And coincidentally met this gal who happens to know the fker who stole my gf... =,= wadever... As usual.. hear stuffs like no one like him, his arrogant and this and that.. Fking loser.. Nevermind that.. Erm.. after work.. Went out with joab and conray.. watched Harold and Kumar at the cathey.. LOL.. that movie.. seriously is the best comedy i'v ever watched in my whole entire life.. Its M18.. so the content's abit fked up.. But still, watching it from the second row was abit fked up.. Thnx conray, Nice selections of seats.. _l_ After the movie, headed to sam's place.. Played Blackjack, texas poker.. Lost 5bucks at the end of everything.. Took a quick shower at his place, borrowed a shirt from him cuz i need to report to work at 9.30am on sunday morning.. as we walked out to the main road.. I felt like really cmi.. So took a cab home, and fell right aslp on my bed.. woke up at 1.30pm.. Realised wad deep shit i was in.. LOL.. late for work by 4hrs.. My god.. Rushed down, faked sick.. They bought it.. LOL.. Worked till 9.30pm.. bUt to be honest.. sld be slacked till 9.30pm.. cuz i wasn't at my station most of the time.. Was talking to other promoters and stuffs.. LOL.. went for smoking break with 2 other promoters outside ngee ann city.. Talked to sean on the phone for abit then went back in.. Wasted man.. Didn't get to see his chick-to-be.. LOL.. heard she's some hot chick working in singtel.. Anyway.. went home after work on sunday night.. Dunno wtf lah.. Got chased out of home by my mum.. Quarrelled over some stupid issues.. Went to crash over at jon's place.. 1am in the morning.. no bus.. lots of cabs, no money.. Can only walk over lor.. Next morning which is this morning lah, ate breakfast with him and his mum at the coffee shop.. That's my only meal of the day untill like dinner.. Nb.. was fking hungry the whole day.. Like dog.. Anyway.. its over.. Forget it.. Now that i'm back home.. Jus hope that the storm's over..




Good luck norine.. I know its too late to do anything now that u guys are tgt.. But i won't try anything... Jus hope one day, we could be frens again.. Cheers..

Week 2

Week 2 is almost up.. Had fun schooling nowadays.. No distractions at all.. No nothing.. Jus purely schooling.. Well.. I'm starting work today.. Yes.. Will be working at Robinsons Centre Point as a promoter.. Hahas.. feel free to look me up on weekends if u happen to passby yeah? =)






*Never make a promise you can't keep

heys~

If u can't decide.. the best choice is to give it up.. And start afresh..

Skol

Week 1 has jus gone by like the wind.. Fast, too fast to be labelled boring.. Am starting to love school once again.. The feeling of being surrounded by frens has overwhelmed the loneliness creeping inside of me.. Ain't u glad to see that smile on my face everyday now? Hahas.. As time goes by, i'v came to realised that alot of things i have done were jus plainly for the sake of doing it, its not wad i wan, its jus a moment of rash acts and thots that pushed me into the mess i was in.. Instead of cleaning them up, I made things worst.. That's probably the sign telling me that i ain't suitable or old enough to think properly before doing certain stuffs.. Studying suddenly became my everything.. When i was lonely during breaks, my notes were there, on rides to skol and home, when my phone didn't buzz or receive any msgs, my notes were there to accompany me.. It became like the only thing in life i have.. Probably cuz i'm jus too used to being in a r/s... That's why this fear of loneliness developed.. Although somethings are gone, but definitely it benefited me one way or another..

Baby cousin's 1 yr old tml.. Will be at jurong for the whole evening.. Before that, will be having a gathering at my sec skol fren's place.. Long time since i last seen the few of them.. Well.. Des, u'r missed by all of us.. Hahas... Alright then.. Time for dinner.. Haven been regulating my meals, pointed out by my doc durin the last visit to the clinic, indeed there's nth that i can hide from her.. Even smoking.. =X hmmm.. but jus hoping that i can draw a clear line regardin that issue.. I know its bad for health and its a expensive habit.. but it jus helps me relax.. Everytime i think of random stuff, my whole body will tense up so bad, then emotion will overcome my sense and drown me in another shithole.. Not say smoking is the only cure but jus that it helps... But i think only i myself know the real ans... And sorry ppl, i'm jus too weak now to say no to cigs.. Sorry..


Freedom = No gf = save money = One day closer to owning a PSP and a new Hp ... muhahahas...

LOL

????? 抽烟戒烦脑, 赌博练头脑,喝酒身体好 ??????

=/

Haix.. was jus reading thru the chat logs of me and her.. Realised how freaking evil and lousy a bf i am.. No wonder she wan to break up.. LOL.... anyway.. It was pretty funny too.. Was laughing non-stop at the way we talked and seriously.. I jus dunno how to treasure things.. So now.. All my frens out there.. I'll treasure everyone of ya forever.. =)

Sigh.. Skol at 9am.. Ends 5pm.. So standardized everyday... =(

Based on birth date

You have pleasant and friendly personality. People look up to your wit and imagination. You are unpredictable and hardly complete what you started, which sometimes create negative impact to people around you. Your Love, Falling in love becomes your routine. Most of the time, you are lucky. You fascinate people with good taste but you never have enough with one. Although your love progresses very fast, it never lasts.


Somewhat damn true.. LOL..


This has no link to the top post.. Well.. life's been really so frustrating.. Studying has become the only thing i can and have to do now.. No more gf, no more sorrows, no more pain.. Jus plain old me left torn and shattered.. Hoping to recover from the aftermath of my self-invited disasters.. Was jus browsing thru xz's blog and i realised that this following paragraph is so me and so damn true..

"When u give, don't expect anything in return.So why give?Somtimes I really wonder what kind of a person i really am. Do i give for merits or for personal satisfaction? When you do things for others or show concern or whatever there is, I personally feel that as long as there is appreciation, thats more than enuff.But,sometimes I can't feel it.So i guess i don't work on the basis of "when u give , don't expect anything in return". Budden again, sometimes , it works that way..to some.."

Sigh.. have been struggling trying to understand wad i'v learnt today.. This new module has been deemed cursed.. Failure rates' high.. Freaking peeing my pants anyday man due to jus worrying over this.. Haix... But the positive point is that i'm reunited with few of my old classmates.. Which is encouraging though.. Alright.. time to catch some rest.. Thinking of deleting this blog.. I mean.. i'm grateful for all those of u who still bother to type in my blog link and check up on me.. Really apprecaited it.. But sometimes, was jus wondering why am i blogging so much.. Now to everyone.. Ryan's so predictable.. Haix... Time to keep Low... hahas.. okay lah.. will see how.. ciao !!!

Had another long talk with des... This is one guy that i looked up to man.. Seriously.. Its jus so ever encouraging and peaceful talking to him.. Looking back.. At wad i'v been thru.. Yes.. firmly i said.. Enough.. Its time to look ahead.. Its time to stop all these nonsense in my life.. Meant to be or not.. Many ppl tend to use it for relationships, but now i realised that that's wad differs me and him.. I'm still looking at things in a immature way.. 19 alr.. Wasted loads of time man.. Jus wanna say "bro, i'll nvr let myself down again with the wrong decisions in life.. swear i'm gonna walk out of the shadow.. I wan the rainbow.. badly... but yes.. gotta learn to bear with the rain first.. " Life is not all about the conclusion, but the process of it.. It teaches u many things u nvr knew.. Disappointments are the main motivators.. So when u'r at the point of dying or screwing up, dun give up.. Work hard and know ur goals.. Cuz that's wad makes one successful.. Managing ur time, ur emotions, ur social life is impt as well.. Always nvr take things for granted.. Signing out.. need to rest for skol tml.. Nitez all.. And last but not least.. Des, the 40mins will definitely not be wasted... you really open up my eyes to see wad's best for myself.. so.. thnx..

Sem 5

First day of skol.. could still roughly rmb the first week of sem 4.. Haix.. every start to a new sem is always so challenging and rough.. Hmmm... K lah.. keeping my mind off things as much as possible.. Going off for skol now.. Update again soon..


Back from skol.. Was fun.. Had IS today.. Coincidentally i'm in the same class with alot of ppl that i knew and those that i'v nvr thot we could ever bump into each other de type.. Will be looking forward to school more then ever now.. Frens are really ppl u can't live without.. I mean, other then the person u love lah, but i think frens are crucially as impt as them.. Hmmm... Got to meet ppl from ACC (accountings de).. As usual, chicks.. Hahas.. Its like EE guys are so deprived of them lah.. LoL.. anyway.. Intro and stuff.. Class's boring.. Went to CC for the CCA fiesta.. decided to commit back to the NP bowling.. Yes.. I'm yr 3 alr.. Now then go back.. LOL.. wasted so much time lah.. but its okay.. Still young.. 19 only.. If you are readin this.. LOL.. 20 is also considered quite young okay !! But i doubt u'll see this so.. Hahas.. Oh yeah.. saw alan lim in NP.. lol.. came to NP to pick his gf.. Sweet sia.. Been along time since someone came to pick me up from skol le.. Now i'm missing those days in primary skol when my mum picks me up everyday.. =X Okay lah.. time to slp.. haix...



Any idea how tough is it to be loving someone who can nvr be wif ya? Its damn tough..

bowling~

Hey ppl.. Practically i spent 7hrs in my club bowling alley competing in the men's doubles.. Partner with a old team mate... Well.. The competition starts at 9.30am.. The check-in time was 9am sharp.. But due to becuz i slept at 5.30am the previous night.. Couldn't wake up in time.. LOL.. mum woke me up at 9.. reminded me i had the competition on at 9.30.. My first reaction was.. LOL.. Cannot make it one lah.. But then i didn't wanna ps my buddy.. plus since i no longer have any responsibilities... i decided to make the trip... Wash up and change took me only 5mins.. lol.. next thing i knew i'm alr on the way to warrans.. Reached there.. they were jus starting the first game.. I missed the whole warm up.. So didn't had any practice throws.. Bowled like shit for the first 2 games... But gradually improved myself for the next 10games.. Reason to why i spent 7hrs in the alley is yes... 12 games !!! And there's like 14 teams.. So took us quite a long time to bowl each turn.. Had lunch during the interval.. Club food is good.. Hahas.. Nasi lemak with chilli fish, long beans, chicken wings... Yummy.. =D So after food was more bowling... Have no idea wad my total pinfall was cuz didn';t wait till the end of the prize presentation.. Roughly knew we came in ninth.. didn't win anything.. was a big pity cuz if we had gotten eighth, we could have won $60 cash, shared btw the 2 bowlers.. Damn.. nvm.. Next time bah.. Anyway.. i won a $120 b4.. LOL.. that's when i came in second in the mixed singles.. Anyway.. Was pretty satisfy with my results.. Think a 180 or 190 avg.. Not too sure.. But anyway.. That's how i spent my day.. Interesting huh? Hahas.. K lah.. shall go off now.. Ciao...

Jus wondering wad u are doing now...

Hey ppl, jus checking in for abit.. nth much happen today.. was rather dull and boring.. ok.. ok.. i lied.. But no point saying anymore..

I'v got no idea how much an idoit i was.. Why am i still like a irritating housefly flying ard her when she's got only her ex in her mind.. Why i am such a love fool.. Why... Guess u were right.. i give love way too easily.. But i always tot my choices are the best.. But this one.. I must be blinded... I know wad u'r going thru.. and i'v tried to help.. but u'r rejecting it.. u know things won't happen the way u wan it.. yet.. u still wanna go for it.. I'm tired as well.. I'm sick of doing so much and not get appreciated for it.. I'm sick of everything.. I'm sick of seeing u leading me onto something and jus leave me hanging.. I'm sick of it... It feels jus like u were giving me hope this second and taking them all away the very next.. Alright.. enough said.. enough... arg !!! Enough fcuk damn it.. enough !!!!!!!!


I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my
true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Jus a piece of wad i have in mind... But i guess...

Truth or Lie

I dunno wad to say bout today... Best day so far ? Or the most fked up day ever... God... Went to skol for lunch or say late breakfast with jon and ph.. Been 2 months since i last returned back.. Food's good.. =) Jon stayed in skol cuz he got to attend a camp.. Ph went off, left me and yl... the plan was to watch er.. A show, Deathnote 2 and pirates of the carribean 3 at my place... In the end, only got to watch her 9pm recorded show.. Lend her deathnote home to watch.. Went to MS for her hair cut.. Erm.. ate wadever its call.. Pasta and pizza in jap style... Exp shit.. Really.. Haix.. But i find the food okok only.. Erm.. After dinner, went home.. met up jac and alan for some pooling session.. Played till 12am.. Went off.. Met wh under his blk.. Talked for abit.. If anyone out there knows wad shit i'm going thru.. Pls dun jus throw in advise.. Drag me out of it.. Cuz i'm the soft-hearted type.. U know.. jus a little bit of wadever girls do will jus make me give in.. Haix.. feelings mixed.. Tots confused.. Truths or lies.. I nvr knew... Nvr knew that i could acutally be in this position.. Its the last thing u wan a gal to do to ya man... Lead ya on then fk u upside down.. I mean.. i got to know some insights... but ain't there any proof.. whose lying.. whose telling the truth.. i have got no fking idea man.. But she has no reason to lie to me for 1.. And 2, the other has every reason to lie.. Fcuk man.. Fcuk it... alright.. enough.. Time to cool my head.. Mj session tml at Jac's place again.. Thnx god my focus will be on trying to win as much as possible for the next 7hrs from 11am onwards.. till about 6pm i think.. However.. i jus wanna say to u.. I loved u with all i have.. Well.. only knew u for like less then a month.. and love is too early a word to use.. But constantly thinking, worrying and caring for someone.. That's not jus like anymore man.. Hope u know wad to do... I ain't gonna say another 1 more word anymore.. Choice is urs.. My phone is always by my side.. i'm neither waiting nor calling.. Jus living my life the way it sld be.. U wanna write a chapter in the book of my life.. welcome.. But if u'r here to play.. I suggest you FUCK OFF from my sight...




Everything was like a perfect world to me until when that msg came in.. It jus screwed me upside down.. Reading that kind of msg would be the fking last thing i ever wan.. Ever...
~out~



Back from mj... Lost $45.. Hmmmm.... Jac !!! U always scam us de.. Next time dun wan go ur place play le.. Kan suay one lor.. LOL... hmmm.. no lah.. jkjk.. Recently no luck in everything i do... Prob this month is my suay-est month.... Skol starting in 4days time.. Haix.. Not really in the mood to go back to skol yet... Timetable's out.. 9am - 5pm everyday except for monday which starts at 1pm.. Hmmm.. regardless.. i still hope things will be diff this sem.. Having to suffer in yr 2... no frens, no study mates, no buddies.. its fking pathetic.. Well.. deserve it so.. Hmmm.. Final yr liao ... Thank god.. =S Okay lah.. meeting dunno who later.. Blog again.. Ciao..

arGh!!!!

Monday's boring.. Stomachach killed my plans for today man.. Suppose to train up for the man's double, but then was forced to stay at home by the ache.. Then decided to go jogging if it gets better.. Well.. seems like its gonna stay a little bit longer then expected.. Hmmm... alright.. gtg rest.. Ciao..

Back to life~

Hey ppl, jus checked in.. had a rough night at sam's place.. alright.. let's start off with sat.. Woke up ard 12pm.. had lunch.. all was okay.. talked abit with a random fren bout stuff that has been bothering me alot lately.. came to a conclusion which i know i'll regret but still i'm gonna stay with it.. Alright.. next went to sam's place to hang out for abit.. his dad sent us to church.. Planned to meet up with deb and take a look at her baby.. Had to rush off for ushering duties.. Worship as usual was great.. Love it man.. jus takes all the troubles away.. Like sort of brings u to a forgotten land where u can jus forget things.. Erm.. After church went to raffles city.. Sam bought casino chips from the basement.. Had dinner at New York, the city link outlet.. Well, the dare is that dinner is free for me if i can finish the whole yankee burger alone.. So i attempted.. And i finished it within the time frame of 1hr.. LOL... I'm nvr eating that burger again.. I SWEAR to god.. Hahahas.. can still smell the beef in my breathe.. Fking sick... Well, went over to sam's... I was bloated man.. so bloated i couldn't even walk properly.. Damn sick... Almost vomitted while talking to yl on the phone.. Good thing i didn't man.. If not would have totally spoilt the night.. Rested for abit.. Played texas poker with the chips... Lost 10 bucks after 2 rounds.. so we changed the game to Black Jack.. LOL.. won like 31 dollars.. So over all still won lah.. =) Lost 11 on Mj on thursday.. now at least claimed back some.. Hahahas.. oh yeah.. anyone playing MJ short of last player feel free to call me.. =)

hmmm.. as i said jus reached home not long ago... Meeting sean later.. Walking ard town i guess.. haix.. man.. i miss those time in taiwan and hk.. i miss her too.. but its not meant to be so.. hahas.. laugh it off.. Yes... Alright.. laters..

~A Big Step up~

Hmmm.. woke up ard 12 pm today.. first thing dota-ed.. LOl... didn't off my laptop as i was downloading step up 2.. And my itunes was playing Zui Jin by Lee S.J and a canto song by 王力宏.. was playing throughout the whole night.. Played count was like 94 each.. LOL... But nice songs lah... Catchy and jus the right song at the right time.. Hmmm... went out in the afternoon to meet yl and ph at Far east, orchard.. lucky fellow jon.. Got such a caring gf to buy u stuff.. Jealous !!! LOL... hmmm.. and yl bought only a tube dress i think.. didn't get a good look at it.. but.. LOl.. was over-rated lah.. Abit too exp I think.. Next up went to cine to get tics for Step Up 2... Sat couple seats cuz it's the only best seat available.. Hmmm.. The storyline is similar to You got served.. If u guys watched that movie b4.. I have it in my laptop.. Feel free to get it from me if u'r a street dance HARDcore fan.. =) Before the movie, had a fast dinner at billy bomber's... Order a Pan fried fish with mashed potatoes, Cheese fondue and a Clam choulder soup with bread. Shared the food.. Cost about $39.. the same price of that tube dress yl bought.. LOL.. This is how smart ppl spend money.. to fill up our growling stomaches... LOL.. After movie, sent yl home... ALL the way to boon lay.. someone.. damn thick-skin lor.. Buay pai seh one.. also nvr invite me go drink tea.. LOL... Dun kill me hor next time u see me.. =S Reached AMK ard 11pm.. Bought macs, met wh at the void deck.. he smoked while i ate.. Er.. had a short talk.. then went off.. Gonna dota now.. =D Ciao...


"For myself I live, For you I melt" - ryan ang

lol...

=,=

Mj session @ Jac's place @ 2pm.. Anyway... i'm back to single le.. Fast right? Took the highspeed railway wad.. LOL.. Erm.. now i know.. SMOKING KILLS... =S Haix.. nvm lah... K lah.. time to lose money !!! Ciao !!!


Hmmm.. back from Mj... lOst 11 bucks only... =X... feeling alot more shitty now... Prob went too deep into that short r/s le bah.. Although its short... but its been a long time since i had that sort of feeling... that sort of loving feeling... Sigh... Quitting smoking once and for all.. No more fudging cigs.. Looking forward TO skol.. =D




The true meaning of life is to plant trees, under whose shade you do not expect to sit. -Nelson Henderson

here comes the sun~

Hey ppl.. hmmm.. wondering why " here comes the sun " ? Well.. obviously it means i'v somehow managed to revert things back to the way it is suppose to be.. Well... been busy the whole week spending time with my gal.. She's down with serveral illness.. Hmmm.. hope she gets well soon... Anyway, after coming back from taiwan and hk.. Sg life seems very dull and bored.. it's like so routinalised.. hmmm.. well.. that's life.. =) Hmmm.. haven really been slping well for the past few nights.. jus a couple hours only.. Hmmm.. school's starting on the 14 April.. Look how fast time flies man.. another year and i'll be leading a NS life... At times, wondering if u know.. things are meant to be or wad.. it's like i'v become too scared to even try out.. Haix.. skol's starting le.. no time to think so much anyway.. saving those stuff for the next holiday.. Was hoping to plan a 3D2N trip to genting during the 2 weeks break.. jus to chill and have alittle bit of fun.. anyone with me? If interested let me know asap yeah.. =) Hmmm.. got back my results.. GPA was jus 1.9.. omg man.. its all down to the last 2 sems.. Its either survival or break.. Haix.. really man.. its enough.. everytime will be like must chiong, must get 3 and above.. but its all jus talks.. Perhaps i'm still livin in lala~ land.. Gosh.. hate this life.. but at the same time, have to admit.. my life rocks.. not many ppl have the opportunity to live the life i had.. Seriously.. Hmmm.. okay lah.. i'll end it here.. take care ppl.. and good luck to wadever u hoped for... Now i believe... " Rainbows after the rain " .