Skol

Week 1 has jus gone by like the wind.. Fast, too fast to be labelled boring.. Am starting to love school once again.. The feeling of being surrounded by frens has overwhelmed the loneliness creeping inside of me.. Ain't u glad to see that smile on my face everyday now? Hahas.. As time goes by, i'v came to realised that alot of things i have done were jus plainly for the sake of doing it, its not wad i wan, its jus a moment of rash acts and thots that pushed me into the mess i was in.. Instead of cleaning them up, I made things worst.. That's probably the sign telling me that i ain't suitable or old enough to think properly before doing certain stuffs.. Studying suddenly became my everything.. When i was lonely during breaks, my notes were there, on rides to skol and home, when my phone didn't buzz or receive any msgs, my notes were there to accompany me.. It became like the only thing in life i have.. Probably cuz i'm jus too used to being in a r/s... That's why this fear of loneliness developed.. Although somethings are gone, but definitely it benefited me one way or another..

Baby cousin's 1 yr old tml.. Will be at jurong for the whole evening.. Before that, will be having a gathering at my sec skol fren's place.. Long time since i last seen the few of them.. Well.. Des, u'r missed by all of us.. Hahas... Alright then.. Time for dinner.. Haven been regulating my meals, pointed out by my doc durin the last visit to the clinic, indeed there's nth that i can hide from her.. Even smoking.. =X hmmm.. but jus hoping that i can draw a clear line regardin that issue.. I know its bad for health and its a expensive habit.. but it jus helps me relax.. Everytime i think of random stuff, my whole body will tense up so bad, then emotion will overcome my sense and drown me in another shithole.. Not say smoking is the only cure but jus that it helps... But i think only i myself know the real ans... And sorry ppl, i'm jus too weak now to say no to cigs.. Sorry..


Freedom = No gf = save money = One day closer to owning a PSP and a new Hp ... muhahahas...